The "L" Word

Oh my! So much has already happened in my little world already this term. Mostly just the fact that I met this absolutely amazing boy the week before school started and he has completely turned my world upside down. Is it love? Not yet. But I can see it on the horizon haha. It's super scary cuz I really don't do "love" well. But maybe for this boy, it'll be different. And worth it. He makes me smile every time I see him and tells me I'm beautiful every single day without fail. He has the goofiest sense of humor, which completely just meshes with mine. And we can get into the most random of conversations and pass hours together without even realizing it. When he smiles at me I get butterflies. I'm afraid of when the big "L" word is gonna come up, because he's still pretty fresh out of high school and what if he just "thinks" he loves me and I end up getting hurt when he realizes he doesn't? So I'm pretty scared but, thanks to some advice from a friend, I'm just going to let what happens, happen. You never know if you don't try, right? And if anyone is worth it, this boy is. He just makes me happy <3

Days come and go but my feelings for you are forever

Have you ever met someone and, regardless of how long you were together or how long you've been apart, you just can't get them off your mind? That's my problem these days I haven't been with him in over a year but lately I'm thinking about him more than ever and I have no clue why. It's funny because things were never all that fantastic between us. We fought constantly whenever we weren't physically together. Which might have been the other problem: it was a long distance thing. I don't know. But lately I can't get him off my mind ever. All day long, whenever I give my brain a break, it goes directly to thoughts of him. What is he doing? How is he doing? Does he ever think of me? And night is even worse cuz I can't control my dreams. And he's always there. Thankfully it doesn't really hurt too much these days, it's just slightly frustrating because I can't talk to him and I'm fairly sure he doesn't think about me at all these days. But I believe he's happy and liking where his life is at now. That's all that really matters, right? I love him, but I can't have him. But as long as he's happy, I can deal with that :)

Oh my! First blog post!

Well here it is, my first blog entry. Kinda scary. Haha just kidding. I finally gave in and started one because I'm hoping it will help me sort through all of the crazy things that have happened in the last few months, and maybe get some words of wisdom from any readers :) I guess I'll just start with what has been going on this summer.

The summer started off pretty great with a trip to California for my cousin Trina's wedding. She looked gorgeous and it was fun to get to spend a few days with her and her husband down in the sun. There was naturally a lot of drama but overall it was a fabulous ceremony. I was so proud! Unfortunately, I had to come home to finals and an unexpected break-up. My safe, funny, great, nice guy turned out to be not so nice. At least not for me. Oh well, you live and you learn. Finals went pretty well and thus began my very first summer away from home!

At the beginning of May I rented a house over by the school and by the end of the month I was living there full time. It was my first time being on my own and it was slightly scary! I remember the first night I spent there I didn't have any furniture or really much of anything there. I had gotten in a fight with my father and packed up my car and left! All I had that first night was my pillow, a couple of blankets, my tv, and my dog. Oh and my pocket knife! Thankfully, haha. So I laid my blankets out and watched a funny movie, but everytime I heard a noise outside I about had a heart attack. The first night was definitely intense! But every night after that I was a little more comfortable and ended up LOVING living on my own! I'll have to post pictures of my little house.

A few weeks later I was looking online and decided that my dog needed company for when I had to leave her home alone for school. I found the perfect puppy BUT...she was like 6 hours away.

<---- After seeing this picture though I knew she was worth the drive. So my roommate and I planned a roadtrip and drove all through northern/central Oregon and picked up my perfect puppy. It's definitely been quite a ride with her! She has a lot of strange little quirks. She's never chewed up a pair of shoes and only one electrical cord. However, she does enjoy chewing on my pomeranian Boo ;) The first week of getting to know her was soo much fun! She was such an erratic sleeper that she could literally fall off the couch while napping and wouldn't even notice. Or she would be sleeping like a log and would suddenly get up and move ten feet away and just fall down and continue sleeping! And no matter what she always felt the need to dump out her water bowl. That one was slightly annoying. She just loves water in any shape or form. When we'd take them for a walk we'd go through the college lawn so she could play in the sprinkler. And she would chase the water from the hose whenever we'd water the lawn. Puppies are great! :) After coming home from camping in July she loved water even more. We had to start making sure the toilet lid was down because she would crawl up in the bowl to splash in the water!

My Lily is a big puppy now and she's turning out to be an amazing dog. I honestly couldn't be happier with her :)

My big happy news of the summer? My mommy is finally doing better. After weeks of hallucinations she is finally back to herself. She's better than she's been in years and it makes me super happy.

Whoa I'm tired and that was only half the things I wanted to say! So I guess I'll stop for the night and finish up in the morning. Good night! :)